Take that-I'd wait for life

There's a place we used to be
There's a face that I used to see
There's a picture with you by my side
There's a moment that I want to find.

I don't know where to start
Or how to begin
But I kow I love you still.

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

There's a voice shouting inside my head
There's a space on your side of the bed
There's a hope everytime there's a sound
There's a silence that's playing too loud

I don't know how you are
Or how you may be
But I know I love you still.

If I close my eyes
I'll dream a little deeper baby
'Cause you are always on my mind
Yeah you are always on my mind
For life.

Loneliness

Have you ever felt lonely in the days of your life?I am pretty sure everyone would experienced it if you have a right brain inside your head. I am sure some of you guys will though the loneliness I mention now is the lonely without someone right beside you who you think he/she is the one you want to achieve so badly and the most precious for you in this planet.

Well,i am now telling you that you're wrong if you were one of the people who thought what i mentioned earlier.In my point of views, I personally think that there are various type of loneliness in our life other than that, It could be loneliness without friends around,loneliness without any plan or activities and cetera.

Which loneliness you think is the worst for you?For me, I would say is the loneliness of heart. You might ask what the hell is loneliness of heart?Well in my opinion, it's when your heart doesn't have another piece of heart out there to be with you or listen to you when you have a lot to tell and share.It might happened when you doesn't have someone to share your problem and happiness with their true heart, or it could be you have a lot to tell but you just can't say out loud to the crowd, or you might think it won't help any although you have speak to the people around so you will just keep everything inside your lonely heart and keep your mouth shout.

Yes,can't deny i am already facing this dilemma for quite some time. It will getting your emotion and physically weaker and weaker when the days pass on and its really killing sometime. One of my friends told me I am actually trying to protect myself in a wrong way,i should find someone I close and trust to tell and share. Yea,i had try but at the end of the day,it proved that it is wrong after all.I am not just didn't get any better but even messed up. People out there might listen what you said and give a few of sentence of advices,but don't hope they will gave you a damm concern nor a helpful hand but only a pitiful eyesight. It doesn't give a damm help after all.

Sometimes, i really hope to get myself an air ticket to somewhere without anybody acknowledgment, probably an Island to keep myself out of the crowd to calm down my mind,lying on the bench on the beach,smelling the air of the nature.

You might noticed that my blogs' posts was all in the categorize of emo, honestly i also wonder why and didn't expect my blog to be full of emo when i set it up.Maybe this is the only place i think i can voice out my feelings.


How is wish i am them,without any stress and tension in everyday of life,how delightful.
They are actually my students!

Just another random post

Has been months since my last update. I guess all the readers here have gone away from this blog as well.Well, not going to say too much here in this post though.Things weren't good at all like what i expect before i came back from the Aussie, it suck big time!!


Sometimes i feel like I've run out of luck, never been good for a damm long time, as you could see it from my previous posts till now.Obstacle are getting tougher and tougher,i wonder why.I always though,when the bad gone,the good will come, it isn't true after all. I am still trying to be strong to hold on but how more longer could i go?I am praying days and nights,hoping that god leave a light on .In the meantime, I get to realize something,started to feel that life's like a drama,full of actor/actress,dancing on the stage with all mean.Well,life goes on~

How more furhter could I go

Back to home

I am back to home!Arrived at Malaysia at the 20th November.Pretty exhausted after the long hours of flight and couldn't get a good sleep in the flight.The weather was really bad on that day,raining cat and dog,massive strong wind that can blew the people a few steps away.

After the warm embraced with some of my lovely housemates, I took the train off to the international airport.I was so wet because of the rain.There was a lot going through my mind while i was in the train,all the moment that i spent in Brisbane and all the up and down,it flash through my memory in the raining day.I started to miss that place and the people at the moment.I knew that i will not have much chance to bullshit-ing with my housemates anymore,try their homemade pizza,do all the cleaning together,having some beers together and teasing each other foods,etc..lol.

Apparently,year 2008 is coming to an end really soon,time flies. I will definitely mark this year as the starting of my new stage of life.This is simply because there was a 180 degree changes in my life in this year and I know my life is getting more and more serious.No more slacking around nor giving self excuses anymore.Well,life goes on no matter what happened.All i can do is to get tougher and stronger to face the tomorrow challenges.

Back to topic,lets summarize what I've done in the past few days in home.I went out yamcha with few of my buddies,had myself a hair-cut, dinner and having breakfast with family and i think that is pretty much of it,nothing much though.Result will be released in 2 more days and internship started in 1 week time.Bless me for my coming result and see you~

I am now believe in what comes around goes around~

Never ending Problems

Problems never stop me since the 1st day i stepped into the Aussie Land. It's never easy to deal with the people and stuffs especially when you're alone in a foreign country.Things always turned out the different way everytime when i expect something goods.However, i always believe the rain won't last for long,the sun will shine for me after the rain,it did happened!Study in oversea is not that fun like what we expect, i personally think that it's more like challenging for your every days life,get rid the fucking problems and keep on survive. Apparently,i just get rid one of those problems.I'm not going to tell the story here because it will take me hours to get it done.

I will off to Gold Coast now to meet up some friends who came over from Melbourne.I am so sorry to not be with them on the 1st day when the arrived because of the problem=)I think i started to get tired now,it's time to lay on the beach to chill and get some good rest after the 4 months struggling.Cya all~

All Done!!

I am back!Just finished my last paper today at 8pm.Had been isolated myself from everything just to prepared those exam.Lack of sleep,bear with hunger,cycled to the library every morning and came home at late night,that was pretty much my routine for the past few weeks.Haven't mentions to provide myself with foods,do the cleaning and stuff yet...

The study here is never easy,could never get a single tips from the lecturer and tutors like what i got when i study back in Malaysia.The worst part is most of the subjects cover every topics in final exam which carry very heavy weight!!For the first time,i feel that library is a very good place to study.Back to the exam,i think i did pretty good than what i expect but would not get a very good grade i suppose =( End of the exam mean my holiday began now!!

The notes that i study for the past few weeks.
(pages by pages!!)

One of these morning around 7am,received a call from an anonymous number when i still on my comfy bed. An Aussie talked on the phone asked me am i in the house.I was like wtf so early in the morning call me to ask this kind of question.I answered yea and stuff and he told me he is from DHL and he is waiting outside my house and have a mail for me.I was wondering what kind of mail and who sending me a mail by DHL so urgent. I pulled my ass off my bed and walked to the front door to get my mail.

The package

And guess what,i got an offer letter from Ernst & Young!!Had been applied since a month until i get their reply.

I will be doing a vacation training in audit with them for 2months in this summer holidays started on 1st December.Its also mean that i will not be having any holidays..Shit!! Every weekdays 8.30am-5.30pm,back to the "awesome" federal highway jamming with other cars and trucks.I have got my ticket back to Malaysia too which is on the 20th of November.Friends out there,get ready to call me to yamcha and updated me with yours stories k,lol~

Alright,I will off to bed now,never have a good sleep since last 3 weeks.Best of luck for those who still sit for their exam.

I'm coming back to you soon!!

I know i know, I've been lack of updating my blog. Laziness is not all the reason k, i think everyone should knew how's life in the end of the semester right,lol.. 2-3 more weeks to the final exam, preparation is on the way now,bless me people..i wonder why i never get so serious in my exam before back in Malaysia,maybe the tuition fees is very damm expensive or i can't get look down by a lot of those kiasu and f*king racist ppl here,i wonder...

Have been dealing with so much of uncertainties recently..Will i get an internship?where to move next year?where to get someone take over my room in the summer?going to my brother convocation?air ticket?sigh.. Everything is procastinated by the Stupid Internship which take so long to reply!!

Life is nothing much changes recently,found a job (quite good pay) but got delayed until next year due to going home on summer.Hope there is still a vacancy for me when i coming back next year.Oh yea,now here is already turn to spring,which i like the most among all the season,not so cold or hot,just nice =)..show you guys some pictures of spring here as the end of this post..

Tree in Purple!

These pictures was taken in my uni..

Cya all and take care...Zzz